A few days ago I received an email from a girl named Zsofi that moved me very much. With her permission - I want to share it with you. If this letter can help just one person, even just a fraction, on their own road to recovery with body image troubles or eating disorder - I’ll be overjoyed. x

Hey.

I just wanted to tell you - in the spite of my horrible English - that you probaby saved my life.

Three years ago when I was 13 i grew a bit and i became a little chubby. I was a child so i didn’t realize it ‘till last year, when i drifted into anorexia. It was very painful. I eat less then 200 calories/day for 6 days, and lose almost 5 kilos, then i ate a huge meal in the end of the week and it came back. Again and again, almost every week, for a year. I almost lost my friends and most of time i slept, or lied on my bed cried. i was alone, nobody knew about my disorder (still).

It started in 2010 october. This october i was 52 kg and 175 cm. I started high school in a brand new class. And i find you accidentally on the internet.

And i thought that you look amazing, you are like Marie Antoinette, like baroque beauty, like a mermaid. And I went upstairs, and started to eat.
It started like a usual binge, but it was different. I could taste the food, and i stopped when i ate enough, normally. I don’t know, it just stopped. And I didn’t feel like counting calories ever again.

This happened about a month ago. Now I 63 kg, and i love my body this way. I feel happy, i didn’t feel bad for eating, for eating in front of other people or friends.

I have energy for life, and i can give much happiness and love to my friends again. Seems like they don’t forget me, while i was sleeping. They noticed the change. I hated myself then, but now the boys are crazy about me, and my big boobs - and nobody cares that my thighs are touching. It’s so good. You saved me! I thought being skinny = beauty, and you showed me it isn’t. My life is complete and healthy now.

I just wanted to say thank you for being such a lovely and inspiring person.
I’m very grateful.

Thank you for reading this. Please reply me if you have time and I hope that you are happy about me, and i don’t bother you.

xxx
zsofi

Love and cupcakes,

Bei Badgirl XOXOX